Just read the blog of someone from our school. It just affects me so much to know that there are so so many people out there who choose to see their cup as half empty. Yes, you may be having family problems, friendship problems, etc, but look, who doesn't have problems? If you choose to see your cup as half empty all the time, you'll never be contented with what you have. 
It just hurts to see how people can say that their life sucks when their cup is obviously overflowing. Come on, think about how many people there are out there who are starving, how many people out there don't even have a family, how many people don't even know when their birthday is. & you claim your life sucks. How ironic. 
Come on people, start to count your blessings yo.

Okay, just something that came to my mind after national day celebration ytd & church today.
How many things & people in your life can you thank God for today? Really, every little thing in your life is a blessing from above. Honestly, being born/living in singapore is already a blessing. Having a roof over our head & food on the table for our next meal is already something we should thank God for. How many people out there don't even have a roof over their heads? How many people don't even know whether they'll even have a next meal? Yet here in singapore, we complain about the most ridiculous & minor things possible. I admit, I'm guilty of that too. But hey, instead of complaining about anything & everything, why don't we try learning to appreciate all that we have now? Every little blessing is something worth thanking God for!
Yup, i know this is cliche & everything, but for me, I wanna thank God for giving me such a wonderful family, with parents that love me so unconditionally. I wanna thank Him for placing me in Fairfield, a school that really taught me so many things, so many values. Thank God for my friends, who've been through so much with me, who'll write me letters of encouragement when I feel like giving up. Thank God for my best friend (you know who you are), who spends time having endless heart to heart talks with me, who laughs & cries with me, who gets so pissed off when I get taken advantage of or when someone just upsets me so much. I thank God for New Culture, a lifegroup that not just have fun together, but also does life together. & the list just goes on. 
After thinking about it, I really have loads of things & people to thank God for. I may not be the most fortunate person on earth, but I'm definitely not the least. For so many people out there, whether they will even have their next meal remains a problem & here I am wallowing in self-pity & acting like it's the end of the world over such a minor problem. I can't get any dumber. Really. 
I'm gonna get over this & move on with the life God has given me. This life is not gonna be wasted on complaints & dissatisfactions.

It's really amazing to see how much one can do for the person he/she loves, & I truly admire people who are willing to give all that they have & all that they're capable of to the one they love. But I asked myself this today: how far is too far? How much is too much? Is giving up your principles too much? Is losing yourself too big a price to pay? 
To me, loving someone doesn't necessarily mean giving up your all for him/her. But instead, i feel that loving a person is learning to love everything about the person, whether good or bad. Accepting the good part will always be easy. But what about the bad? Only when you've learnt to love the bad parts of the person, then have you truly understood what it means to love. 

Hello all {: I'm studying in school now, with Yeewei & Deborah. Just did about half an Emath paper & I'm getting bored. Lol. MYE is coming & I'm totally NOT prepared for it lah ! D; Everyday I'm just slacking while everyone is mugging they're guts out. I really really wanna study & score well for my mid-years but i somehow just can't concentrate. HOW? D;

Anyway, life's been alright except for the fact that I'm dying of stress & fatigue. Lol. Today was okay, just revisions & revisions for every lesson. Fell super sick in the middle of the day, but recovered in less than 2 hours. Well, almost recovered. But still, praise the Lord {: Okay, I was just taking a break from that horrible thing called revision/study.
Goodbye people (L)

Obstacles are what builds us up.

Okay, I shall blog since I haven't blogged like in 800 years & my blog's on the verge of dying. Lol.
Today was totally awesome ttm {: Went to church in the morning to meet Noelle, Wingsze & Rosanne to practise some dance thing. Had lifegroup after that, followed by service, then dinner with Noelle, Rosanne, Julia, Junjie & Tim @ Julia's house ;D We went totally mad there. Well, at least I did. LOL. But I got scratched by Trevor, Julia's golden retriever ):

Anyway, I love New Culture & the super complicated 4B family(in the picture above).
Lol.
Yupp, goodbyeee {:

Dance like no one is watching you.
Love like you've never been hurt before.
Sing like no one can hear you.
Live like heaven is on earth.

Nicole has finally decided to blog. Like, FINALLY right ? Lol.
Okay, here's what I've been doing from CNY till now.

Sunday
Met up with Mummy's friend @ Vivo Secret Recipe. Had lunch, then headed to Anchorpoint TCC. Ate my cheescakeeee {: We walked over to Ikea thereafter, to of course, shop. & ate hotdog too {: I ate like super alot that day, as you can tell. Lol.

Monday
Went to Grandma's house, just ate & played the entire day. Laughed like mad with my cousins :D

Tuesday
Went to Mummy's friend's house. Was pretty boring. Went to some distant relative's house at night, which is apparently just 1 block away from my house. Lol. It was rather...good ? Hah.

Yesterday
Back to school. It's horrible having to wake up so early lahhh ): Anyway, went to some musuem place near Clarke Quay/ Raffles Place. Musuems ain't exactly my definition of fun, but some of the stuff were quite interesting {: After school, stayed back with Yeewei, Deborah & Rebecca. We sat down & talked & talked & talked & just talked {: We talked about Deborah's "future" also. LOLLL ! It was hilarious manzzz :D

Today
Had some career talk in the morning by some ex-Fairsians. It was pretty boring to me. After that was the Adam Khoo workshop, together with 4A. Describing the workshop as hilarious would an understatement, really. Lol. Let's just hope tmr would be more fun {:

We worked harder than anyone else, but we ended up with nothing in the end.
Like, thanks alot.
"Look, the world is unfair. Why do you determine your win on praises of man? This world is unfair, y'all really put in more effort than the rest than God will see it, cause God is the only one that is fair & see what you've really done. Does it really matter whether you won? "

Yup, this makes hell lot of sense. Why was I so affected by the fact that we didn't win ? Why am I determining our "1st place" on praises of man ? God saw everything. He saw all the hard work & effort we put in. He knew how much we wanted to win. So, as what Yeewei's father said, it doesn't matter anymore whether we win or not. What matters is that we know we've all done our best. We're the champion in God's eyes. Period. {:

So I lift my eyes to You Lord.
In Your strength will I break through Lord.

I realised that I haven't been blogging since like, forever. So i shall not let this blog die & try to blog as often as i can. {:
Life is just as per normal for now. Nothing much happens everyday, except for some sudden bursts of wild laughter in between conversations with Sumay, Gladys, Noelle, Wingsze, Greg, JieEn, Lincoln, etc. They're hilarious people, really. Anyway, school has been just lessons & dance recently. It's so boring that i'm starting to dread waking up & going to school every morning. Almost every other day we're getting scolded by teachers & hearing them talk about how hard we should be working, how lazy we are, etc. It's so not helping at all. I know it's for our good, but it just adds on to my stress at the end of the day. BUT, the good thing is that i can dance on Mondays & Thursdays, which allows me to forget everything else for 4 hours++ a week {:

So i shall look on the bright side & press on till the end of the year {: I know there're many people around me that's stressed also (you know who you are lah huh.) but just hang on there ! A year will pass super quickly alright ! {:

okay, goodbye !(L)

Okay, I've decided to blog since I haven't been blogging in 800 years. I'm free of homework for tonight, anyway.
School's been awesome since the start of the year till yesterday. Sitting with Claudia & Greg is the joy mansxzzz ! ;D Not that sitting with JieEn & Lincoln isn't, but Julvin's in front of me -.- He turns back to ask weird questions every 2 minutes okay ! For those who know, you'll understand.
But think on the bright side, I have JieEn & Lincoln ! {: I still miss sitting beside Claudia & Greg, but I know I'm put between JieEn & Lincoln for a reason {:

Anyway, life's been REALLY tiring for me. It's like, D&T, homework, dance, homework, tuition, homework, & blahblahblah. The list just goes on & on. It's really killing me manzzzz.
Lessons were painfully mundane today. I was like some kinda living zombie lah. Went for lunch with Rosanne, Gladys, JieEn, Zoey, Rena, Guowei & Billy after school. Found out about a drink called Ice Jelly. ICE JELLY MAKES NICOLE HAPPYYYYY ! ;D
Studied for about an hour or so with Rosanne, Zoey & JieEn, then left for tuition. I just died on the way home.
Seriously.

Okay, this was just a random thought that popped out in my brain while blogging.
Y'know, sometimes it feels like you're dying of fatigue, & everything around you just seems to make it worse. But I believe that with Christ in the vessel, we can smile at the storm. As long as we hold on tightly to Him, we'll live through the storm. Amen ?
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
-Philippians 4:13

Oh well, I guess this just applies to me.
Lol.

You are the only one I want, you're the only one I love.
Then keep promise you this from the bottom of my heart.
On the good days & bad days, & the times you need someone to lean on.
I'll always be there for you.

I know i can't get another try.

My God is so BIG, so STRONG & so MIGHTY
There's nothing my God cannot do, for YOU ! {:

I shall remain calm & try my very best not to be pissed at the stupid computer for deleting the chunk that I've typed previously.
CALM DOWN NICOLE.
Gosh, I can practically see the steam coming out from my ears.
Okay, I shall try to reproduce what I wrote here just now.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EARTHLINGS ! {:
I know it's kind of belated, but yeah.
So it's 2010 already. Man, time flies. It seems like it was just yesterday that I celebrated last year's new year. 2009 was a gruelling year for me, with many problems along the way. But I believe that this year will be better year because I know that God has a plan for me. He's gonna come to interrupt & wreck my life. Not in the negative way, definitely. {:

Okay, just an update on my week.
29 Dec (Tuesday)
#1, Tyre of the taxi punctured on the way to the HK airport, in the middle of a highway. Great.
#2, Plane delayed for a night due to technical problems. Awesome.
But we got to stay in Marriott Hotel for a night thanks to the delay, though {: Chatted with Sis through the night. Talked about many many things & it made me realise how much my sister has grown. Not only physically, but mentally as well. Good {:
Gosh, I sound old D;

30 Dec (Wednesday)
Touched down in Singapore, unpacked, then slacked. Didn't really do much for the next 2 days either.

Today
Finally, CHURCH {: Haven't been to church for 2 weeks. I miss it to the max manzzz. Heh.
Anyway, met Rosanne @ Beauty World for lunch at Macs then Andy, Weijie & Joylynn joined us. Walked to church & met Gladys on the way there.
Talked about reformatting our systems during cellgroup. I'm gonna have to clear my recycling bin & trash all the unhappy experiences of last year or else my computer will lag. That'll be bad. Lol.
Sermon was about seeking God for the big/important things instead of relying on Him for the minute/insignificant problems, & being persistent/bold/shameless in our prayers. So I've decided to be thick-skinned towards God & keep knocking on His door until He tabuleh tahan {: MUAHAHAHAH.

Okay, so I managed to reproduce about 85% of what was deleted.
Not bad lah. Heh.